There is a fine line between being an alcoholic and just trying to escape for a bit. Not drinking isn’t a problem, but some nights that’s all I can do. So much of this song says what I feel, think or am.
‘Cause I’ve been chasin’ the man that I am when I start to drinkHe’s cocky confident, and he don’t give a damn what you thinkThis world is beatin’ me down, it has pushed me right to the brinkI take a shot every time because, man, it helps me escape
I’m takin’ care of these people, but no one takes care of meI wanna talk to somebody, but I feel no one relates
I think sometimes it’s not escaping what is happening around me, but fixing me. There is even a line that says “I keep drinking until I am someone I don’t recognize”, and that is it. It’s not a scary or bad person. It’s a better person. A person who can laugh, and dance, and be happy. Someone who can be proud and confident. A man who wants to be better.
Ultimately, I wonder how many others out there feel this way. I know I should talk to people about it all, but why would my feelings, and me whining about how I see myself really matter to all the others that feel the same way.
At the end of the day, it gets me through the day and night. It keeps me going. A few drinks are worth it, to ensure the sanity stays where it is.
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